I remember how we used to talk like there was no tomorrow. I remember how every thing you said brought a smile to my face. How every conversation lasted for hours. Your good morning messages used to start my morning, and I always ended up falling asleep to your goodnight ones. I remember when my heart used to race, and how I would smile like an idiot out of nowhere just because I remembered something you said. Every single memory we had, I remember every single one of them.
I seriously hate my life. Nothing ever seems to go my way I’m just unhappy with everything especially the situation I’m in now. It’s just constant bad luck and heart break for me. I don’t think I deserve the things that happen to me. I wish things were different.
I wish I has a mom that loved me and supported the things I do instead of criticizing everything I do.
I wish my daughter had a family that was happy and together instead of broken. I want what’s best for her and want her to not make the same mistakes I did. I wish she didn’t have to live house to house she doesn’t deserve that and I never wanted her to have to go threw that. I really should have waited before having a child my life is just so fucked up for her right now. And doing it alone isn’t fun it’s hard and a headache at times.
I need to start making changes in my life I want to make my daughter proud and see that I tried to be the best mom I could be. I want what’s best for her I love my daughter more than anything in this world. And will do anything and everything for her.
I don’t regret anything I just wish I would have waited.